Wow!!!!! Is the first word that comes to mind. One year later from the horrible news that the breast cancer had metastasized to my right lung, I never knew I could feel this good and be this happy. QUESTION: Does the person in the picture look like she is suffering or dying of a life threating disease? Please do not take the question as arrogance. It is pure CONFIDENCE. I know who God created, that’s me!! (the girly in the photo). ~Photo by Lea Hartman Photography, Fayetteville NC~
I would not trade this life changing event in our lives for NOTHING in this world. It has been more than a change. It has been an enhancement that has caused a complete paradigm shift in our way of thinking, living, loving and more importantly worshipping. Our faith is on full blast which keeps any and all negative thoughts and people at bay. This faith has birthed a new way of thinking by us realizing who we are and knowing that God DID NOT make any mistakes. A new way of living by us realizing that we must live in the moment to give no thought for tomorrow. A new way of loving by understanding each other’s thought and precepts on how we want to be loved and knowing God loves us infinitely and does not want us to suffer. A new way of worshipping unleashed by the annihilation of fear. I LOVE MY NEW LIFE!!!!!
Life’s Little Lessons!!!
I would like to share a little of what I have learned over this pass year while some may have thought I was facing death. This was a quick way to put all things in life in perspective. I quickly learned to identify all things that are important to me including people. So here are just a couple:
1). Who or what you may think in your greatest battles is your ally could be your biggest enemy. There is a reason that ‘Thou prepares a table before me in the presence of my enemies.’ I learned what the enemy was including the tactics and strategies. I invited the enemy in, sat down at the dinner table and inadvertently figured out how to defeat it. Yes, cancer was my enemy; it was trying to defeat me. But oh the sweet sound of Wisdom which allowed me to remove the obstacles that kept me from seeing God. In my case, my physicians were initially my allies but unfortunately due to the way of this world and how they are trained, in my first bout with cancer they proved to be my opposing force. I won’t call them enemies because they were only doing what they were trained to do and providing the services they are limited to provide by LAW. However, the system in which they are apart of is a force to be dealt with and I will not go into a rant of the “money making tactics of pharmaceutical companies and so forth (will save that for another post). But essentially, I depended on them instead of God. I looked to them instead of God. I allowed the IV fluid bag to be filled with toxic poisons instead of relying on truth and faith but on the second time around I placed the IV bag in Heaven and now the Creator is constantly injecting faith, restoration, and healing.
2). The Thin Line: The same thin line that exists between Love and Hate is the same line that exists between Intelligence and Ignorance. I learned that the thin line can be riddled with stupidity if one becomes too intelligent (book sense wise) to realize that ignorance can still exist. Everything taught from a book or science lab isn’t always truth. “Always find you own truth.” For instance, we were taught for years in school that Christopher Columbus founded America but even as a kid I wondered how was it that he is recognized as the founder when Native Americans were already here and so were many Africans who had traveled back and forth here for years. The books should have stated that he was the first European to come to the continent not that he was the founder. Furthermore, there is nothing wrong with ignorance provided you are seeking truth to eradicate the lack of knowledge to find truth which is NOT always written in a text book. We all are ignorant in and of something. Here is what I learned most about intelligence, ignorance, and the thin line: WISDOM is the reigning force that will supersede all. So when the bills are due, instead of praying for financial blessings, I pray for wisdom so I will use the financial blessing well beyond the bill. When sick, instead of asking God to only heal, I pray for wisdom so when He heals; He will also teach and give me the tools to get well and stay well. When in need of love, instead of praying for new friends, mate, or anyone to love, pray for wisdom so God will reinforce that He is Love and there is non greater – EVER!
3). The last but far from the least thing I learned is that fear does not exist. It is NOT real. I am not sure where this came from but I once heard someone say that F.E.A.R. is an acronym that stands for:
Dominating fear was my biggest win yet. 2 Timothy 1:7, For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. I have said it over and over again in the previous post that once I removed fear the road less traveled become a clear path. I was not afraid of death and was willing to accept God’s plan for my life even if was to be shortened by cancer. The part of this scripture that we tend to miss the most is that He tells us not fear but POWER!!! We must own or take up the power He has given us and stop being weak which will allow us to fall for anything. I continue to pray about constantly being bold in God. I know He is holding my hands when I need guidance and carrying me when my knees are weak; holding me when I need comfort.
And one more for the road, God rewards obedience. In this journey I have come to understand obedience and continually reap the benefits from doing so everyday. My rewards over the past year are endless. In what some would consider nothingness I have abundance that is hard to imagine. For this I am forever grateful.
Peace, Love and Cup Running Over,